Just let me.

9 months later, i'm writing a new post here. I guess, i'm just having mood swings now, that's why I decided to write here. I suck at writing so bear with me.

Al ot of thing have changed during this 9 months.
I stepped out of my previous life. Relationship of 4.5 years ended. I moved out. I'm staying at a rented place with my best friend aka sister. And financially, it has been quite tight. But i do not want to move back home.

I'm not ready yet.

There's a lot of emotions in me, that i choose not to show, not to say, not to answer, or I don't even know how to explain here. All bottled inside me ain't a good feeling as well. Ties are being cut-off-ed. Major fire on the social medias which involved the people that I love. I do not want any of this to happen.

I have been portrayed out as a cheater, a liar, a promise-broker and etc. All the unpleasant words that one can say it's all out. I don't even want to defend myself or my reputations. I have given up.

I just want everything major to jus die off. I just want to be able to lead my life properly and happily.

So please, just let me.